Blog001: Being a Passionate Bitch in a Nonchalant Society
01.30.26
Lmao happy new year?? I was lingering on what to put for my next entry on here but then medical school got busy (as it usually does). TO be honest I'm still impressed how I managed to build this site while on rotations. It seems I'm always defying the odds when it comes to free time to have little side quests in med school HA.
I hopped on here with the quickness because I wanted to lowkey shout into a void. I know there may be some people passing by while roaming different sites. If that's you: hello! Enjoy your brief stay. The winter season sucks and it's around the time of a friend's sixth year death anniversary so I'm tryna be kind to myself. But in this time, I've been thinking a lot about passion. Just getting feral over something you really care about. I've seen online over the last two years of people talking about the nonchalant epidemic online (and I think in person too). The "it's not that deep" crowd. And, in that, you're seen as lowkey a weirdo if you're a little too passionate about a thing you enjoy. And God forbid you're anything but a man obsessing over American football.
I have finally started reading through the Disco Elysium art book. I am still very sadden that I can't get my hand on the physical copy but I will make do with the free version online. And just reading the first two sections alone about the process it took to make that video gamee.....wowwowow. When I tell you the level of artistic admiration and appreciation that game has left on me since I first played it in 2022? Amazing. And it's not even just them, there's also the creator behind the short film 'Puparia' and seeing how this person poured three years of hard work to bring on a vision only he wanted to articulate. Amazing. But damn god forbid someone is fueled to want to put something out into the world or be very moved by the arts or whatever the hell!
Like? It's a weird space to be in because you can have passion or dedication to a topic or craft but not too much. There's a lot of young people who are too scared to try anything new but in the same breath shun people for doing that anyways. It's weird!! I'm not sure where I'm really going with this since it's just a loose train of thought but in terms of my creative pusuits: I will make that animated short film. I will continue to make art projects that continue to be an outlet for me. I will continue to live my life and not have people define my story. This time will eventually pass and people will look back wondering what the hell was wrong with us. This post-irony era is lame now and people need to stop being afraid to just exist. Bah, but I guess on that note:
Stay weird. Stay passionate. Stay human.
Mood: 
thinking too hard into a potential spiral
Listening to: 
Whirling-in-Rags 8pm by Sea Power